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It'sJust....*ignoreIt..

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..Aq sedih waktu org2 bicara hal2 negatif atau terkesan mengejek tentang pekerjaan pacar dan teman2ku yg saat ini notabene mmg pny pghasilan yg mumpuni bagi org seusia mereka hanya karena stigma lama yg melekat pd instansi mereka..

Buat aq pribadi...
Aq ngerasa ga nyaman klo ada nada2 underestimate pd suatu hal yg aku taw ga seremeh yg org2 kira..
But it's just me...no offense..
Aq ga mengharapkan org lain berperasaan yg sama dgnku..
I just wanna tell what I feel..

Aq duluna jg ga ngerti..
Kupikir wah enak bgt..duit gmpg datang..pekerjaan gampang..
...Cm gtu doang..
Tapi..semakin aq taw bagaimana sebenarna..stressor..interaksi..dampak lingkungan kerja..pola kerja..masalah2 di tempat kerja teman2ku itu..aq semakin respect ma mereka dan kupikir apa yg mereka dapat itu pantas untuk mereka..
Kadang menurutku di beberapa divisi/bagian perlu lebih banyak diberi tunjangan atau perlindungan kesehatan..
aq aja yg cm kerja 8 jam sehari di rmh sakit yg kadang2 sepi pasien bisa ngerasain tekanan atau dampak2 lainna..apalagi mereka yg berangkat kerja dr jam 7 pulangna kdg ampe mlm bgt..
Emg msh byk juga jenis pekerjaan lain yg jam kerjana panjang..aq jg respect bgt soal itu..dan trutama sm teman2ku ini..

sebagai cewek awalna aq sulit ngerti..
Tp semakin aq taw..
Semakin aq sering liat wajah lelahna dia sehabis plg kantor..aq nrasa aq bener2 keterlaluan klo nuntut hal2 yg kekanak2an..
Semakin sering dgr cerita situasi dan kondisi kerjana...aq jg kebetulan belajar di bidang kesehatan..aq semakin sadar bahwa apa yg mereka dpt itu sangat pantas...
Ada waktu yg dikorbankan..
Ada tanggung jawab..
Mereka bekerja..
Mereka pria yg msh muda..sementara banyak juga pria seumur mreka msh bergantung org tua atau bs hidup enak tanpa kerja..

Aq bangga kenal dan berteman dgn mreka bukan karna pekerjaan mreka apa..
Tp beberapa dr mreka aq taw bgt punya sikap dan tanggung jawab yg baik..
Pria2 yg bisa diandalkan..
Mereka mmg ga seperti pria2 metro atau apalah..
But deep inside..I know they'll be a great husband and father..

Kalaupun mereka punya keinginan untuk membeli sesuatu yg mahal ato memiliki hobi tertentu..bagiku itu well deserved bt mereka..why? Karena mereka berhak untuk itu..
Mereka menghasilkan uang dr jerih payah mereka sendiri..
Beberapa dr mereka bahkan terbebani tanggung jawab terhadap keluarga..
Membeli satu barang yg mereka suka berapapun hargana asal mereka mampu bagiku itu pantas..dan tidak bisa dibandingkan dgn org yg tidak bekerja atau dapat uang dr orangtua..itu sangat berbeda nilaina..

Bagaimanapun...siapapun...temanku atau bukan..I put my respect for what they've been done...
Smua pekerjaan punya tingkat stressor yg berbeda..
Org memiliki daya koping yg berbeda..
Cara adaptasi yg berbeda..
Ga ada pekerjaan yg benar2 sulit ataupun benar2 mudah..
Tergantung persepsi..
Tp bagiku..semudah apapun suatu pekerjaan..tetap menuntut tanggung jawab..
Pekerjaan sepele pun bs mengundang stressor..

Bagaimanapun kadang untuk bs memahami org lain..terbentur oleh ego kita sendiri...membandingkan hal yg sebenarna tidak bs disamakan..dan tidak pd situasi yg sama..

Aq jg pernah sangat sulit memahami...
Tp untuk bs memahami org lain..jgn letakkan org lain pd persepsi hidup qt..
Tp letakkan diri qt di persepsi hidupna..sulit..tp setidakna bs qt coba..

Just ignore me...
I just really care about my hubby..
And some friends that I knew..
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Its just a story..
JR's

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_MarchMyWayOnMarch_

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...In this month I was born 23 years ago at 12:07pm on sunday,March 8..
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I'm so grateful I can reach this age and surrounded by my family and friends..

This month..I finished my exams..I celebrate 'otonan' on sunday,March 7, 2010..and continue my celebration of my birthday by the next day..
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I went to my temple to pray and grateful for what I've been through and whatever comes next in my life..I pray and hope I can be useful for everyone around me..spread genuine attitude..live in harmony..manage my emotion appropriately..pray for safety and protection for my family and friends..for everyone I love and respect..believe that The Supreme Power never leave me alone and always give blessing..
My family called me..and prayed for me..
And my friends gave me a surprise party for my birthday..
I couldn't asked for more..I should knew my life was blessed since the first time I was born..
Everyone had blessed for living this life..
Including me...
Maybe tomorrow I'll forget...but at least once I've knew..and believe I'll always knew and so much grateful for however my life would be..

I also celebrate Caka New Year 1932 with 'catur brata penyepian' or simply called 'nyepi' (silence) today..this month..tuesday, March 16..
Spending whole day..in 24 hours with silence..begin the new year from zero point..from nothingness..from conciousness of inner self..
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...I recap all the things I can remember..
..Hope and pray for something better..
...Strenghten my faith about future..
And let go everything that out of my control..lay it down..and believe in another supreme power to take care of it..
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I'm not consider myself to be so religious...
Once I can't really believe to my religion..or everything what people might said and called as a religion..
But "Ekam sath, Vipraah bahudhaa vadanti",(the truth is one..scholars call it by various names..)
Which found written in rigveda..one of Veda scriptures..made me realize I'm nobody to judge..
I can live this life as dharma thought me..
Sanatana dharma is not a religion..
It's a law..it's a way of life..
..For me..that's what I believe and put my faith on..

In my 23 years of life..I realize how short it was..
I can't believe I've through all those years and sitting here..thinking and write this..
I don't have anything marvelous to tell..
Or a great achievement to proud of..
I just have what I have..
I've spent my time for good and bad..
To laugh and cry...
Being weakened and strenghtened...
And all other things...all the life could bring in ordinary....
..Everything was part of me..mend the broken and rise from falling...my story and my memories...I embrace it with all my heart,my mind and my soul..

I hope in the next day..next chance..next time that given to me..I can make myself better than today..
Just a little better..
A little closer to what I believe..

Thank you for everyone in my life...
However they are..good or bad..or even worse...
They thought me lessons..influence me and help me to be what I am now..however people judge..however it might seen..
In me..more or less..I feel blessed..
..
JR's

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Caka New Year 1932

Om swastyastu..

Selamat tahun baru Caka 1932..
Selamat menjalankan catur brata penyepian..
Semoga berkah selalu dilimpahkan..
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Om..shanti..shanti..shanti...Om..
JR's

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_Kanggoang_

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...That's a word in balinese means menerima apa adanya dulu...
..More or less..I think.. :)

Sejak awal kami berteman sampai detik ini....kata itu selalu ada dan bahkan jadi filosofi buat kami..
..Aku dan dia..
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Sejak awal kami memutuskan untuk bersama...aq siap menerima kata "kanggoang" itu selamanya..
Membuatku lebih rendah hati...
Mampu mensyukuri...
Dan pantang menyerah...
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Menikmati setiap apapun yang kami miliki...
Karena rasa kurang hanyalah persepsi di dalam diri...
Walaupun memang benar kami kekurangan..masih banyak orang lain yg sama dengan kami bahkan jauh lebih kurang daripada kami..

Less demanding....benar2 menjadi orang yang mawas diri dan cermat..
Aku jadi lebih menghargai stiap jerih payahnya...
Belajar meletakkan rasa hormat dan percayaku padanya...
Begitu pula dia mulai meletakkan hormat dan rasa bangganya padaku karena aku mampu bertahan di sampingnya dengan kemampuanku sendiri..
Mampu menghormati dan menerima bagaimanapun keadaan kami tanpa mengeluh dan terus berusaha agar menjadikan diriku bukan beban baginya tapi partnernya untuk menjalani hidup..
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Perlahan kami belajar...
Kami tidak sempurna..tapi kami terus belajar...
Rasa sakit dan bahagia...apapun keadaannya...kanggoang kami rasakan dulu..
Sambil terus berjalan bersama..
Saling menguatkan...
Kadang harus berkorban..
Tidak selalu menerima..
Tidak selalu bisa memberi..
Kanggoang dulu...
Kami masih terus menjalaninya dan terus berusaha...
Kalaupun keadaan memburuk..atau pernah buruk...kami jalani dengan ikhlas..dan terus memperbaikinya..

Dia pernah bilang..aku akan terus mendengar kata kanggoang itu slama aku bersamanya...
Kukatakan padanya....kanggoang hidup denganku juga ada suka ada duka...
Kami sama2 menerimanya..
Kami tidak mengharapkan yang terbaik..
Kami hanya ingin jadi lebih baik setiap harinya..

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_NotSuperficialPart2:theSparkOfAtman_

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....For me..everything so wide and borderless...
I always think it must be anything interesting outside the horizon..
Its more than I can see..
More than I can feel..
So everytime I feel I'm centered and shallow...I try to remember how tiny I am in this huge universe..
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In my beliefs..me and everything else of this universe was the spark of Atman..
Atman is the greatest source...we might called it God..
the one and only we could believe has ultimate and unlimited power to create this whole universe..
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I'm not consider myself religious...I'm just thinking..
As a spark of the Atman..humans have inner God in them..
Human beings is as huge as the spark itself..
No matter how deep we thought we've knew about ourself..it was barely touch the surface..
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..To get to know about ourself there's hundreds knowledge and science to discover..but still..the mystery unsolved..
Just 1 human..can spare into hundreds of science..to learn about eyes, ears, pulomonary system, gastrointestinal system..and much more..our blood..our cells..our DNA..our mucose..and all..
But still..we can't figure out everything..
It perhaps because we as a part of the Atman have to realize that what we've known is barely nothing compare to the Atman itself..
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1 human..a spark..a miracle..one life..
One part of this world..even just like a dust in universe..we should never disrespect..
Coz every human..has part of God's power within..
However they act..whoever they are..
..Deep down everyone is a good man..
But some people just choose to take the opposite..
Its their choice..and they'll get what they've done..
As we've got what we've done..

..Universe always in a balance condition..
When it's unbalance..it would tried to evolve for reaching the balance..
Terms 'rich' available coz there's 'poor'..
'Lazy' is said coz there's people knows 'hardwork'..
Everything got its role..
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..To be continued...
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_PouredByChoices_

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....Its just another week..another day roll..
..Rain pouring down...
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..When I stuck on somewhere I don't know while raining...I can't do anything but wait..
..Looks like a big and windy one pass through my city today..
..I'm standing w/ some people..
Wondering how would it be..and when it'll be over..
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..I watch people whining...just keep silent and staring...talking...
I just smile and watching..
..Perhaps I'll be different if I'm in a hurry..
But I realize that sometimes we can push anything on our way...we should let another way come through..whether it's bad..or even worse..
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As the rain began to subside...I decided to buy an umbrella before it starts raining again...
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...But I barely use it anyway...I can't risk myself facing stormy weather with just an umbrella..
Once again..I gotta wait..but that umbrella must find it useful somehow..
..*giggles...I don't know why I'm laughing sometimes..
Its just nice to turn my bad mood to a gud mood with just simple things..
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..Rain often makes me blues..but in my mind I can create my own sunshine..

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Finally I can go to take my ticket..
It's a flight ticket..they can just deliver it..but I choose to take it by myself..
..Besides I haven't fixed yet with the price..
..However...
On my way there I ride a bus..
What I always see in my poor richest country is child labour..
But I'm not gonna seen it as politician did..or humanitarian did..
I just...
..I just find it amazing..
Here..I saw a boy..
He became an assistant for the bus driver..
He doesn't even have any shoes on..
His duty is search for the passenger and give any sign to the driver whether it should stop or move on to load and unload the passengers..
Well..we did 'man'ually here in our country..*chuckles..
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Back to that boy..I asked him how old is he..and he said he was 11..
that was really breaking the law..
But...
..I think he was far more better than any beggars out there..
I ask him why he work on this bus..its really dangerous..why doesn't he just work as beggars?..he said begging is not a work..this is working..
I just can amaze while he ignores me and keep working..
Life is about choices..
Even its hard..there's more possibilities to be harder...
And somehow hard is just about perception..
Just like this fearless lil' boy...
He just sing along his way through his hard life..
He saw and he put himself where he wanna be..
He could just beg..or steal..or anything..but he choose to work his way to live his life..
I'm still thought that kids deserved their kids time..but not everyone can really get it..
This lil' boy has his own perception about his life..he choose different way..
I'm not agree to child labour..either use kids as beggars..
But I value this boy for his hard works..for not just giving in to the easiest way with no honor..but choose the hard ways with dignity..
..He just 11..and he teach me somehow..
No matter I stuck..and think there's no choice left for me...actually I still have that choice..
I just need to dare myself..am I dare to take the choices I have that might be really hard for me..or just standing here doing nothing but whining,blaming and crying..
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Just another day in my life...
Another moment..
More I know..its never worth to whine small stuff..
There's a lot out there deserve to done it than I do..
That's why I'll make my own sunshine...
Just rain..traffic..annoying waitress..annoying bajaj driver...let them have their attitude..
I'll keep my brightest smile..and laugh to myself..
Cheers for today..
let tomorrow comes..
JR's

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