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...Bentar lg val' day..
Never really celebrate it actually..
Just got more chocolates in a day..
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...Give a gift..choosin' it..hopin' it can deliver our feeling to the deepest meaning..
..Sweet ha?..
Well..nothing really sweet...it must have a bitter taste..a bit..or even more than ever thought..
Depends..

Anyway..
I always bothered by this feeling...
The feeling that I have when I'm down and I've been spoiled too much..
Like I always take and never could give anything...
I've been giving him a real hard time to pay for what he'd been done..

He once said "u don't have to give me anything...I wish u could be just fine and could take care of urself...it would be the best gift u've ever done for my life.."..

Ever since..I promise I won't hurt myself when I feel the pain..
Coz those pain not only hurt me..but also the one who loved me..
And it was a huge dissappointment..
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I just need to take care of myself right..
So he doesn't have anything to worried about me all the time..
At least I'm less troublin' him..
It would be a biggest support to him..
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For his open mind..
For his sincerity..
It's me to blame if I could forgive him and love him more unconditionally..
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