_LiveOnBothSide_

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.....I'm good...and I'm bad...
..I was good..and I was bad...
....I'll be good...or I'll be bad..
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...I'm optimist yet pessimist..
I'm introvert yet extrovert..
..I can be so cool and ignorant...
Yet could be on fire and raging blind...
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I shout out loud yet whispering soft..
My head full of thought yet I stay numb and not so tough..
The words should unspoken yet flowing out my mouth..
My ego satisfied yet my heart hurt..
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I keep myself down low...bring curiosity...
I speak my mind out loud...some people laugh at me..
I ignore what they said...they tell me I'm snobby...
I don't know why they try to hurt me...am I make them look like bunch of goofies?...
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I never thought I'm smart yet I'm not stupid...
They keep judging me without knowing me a bit..
I shut my mouth...never complain for anything they did..
So why bother me as if like I need to get rid?..
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...For all haters yet I had much more supporters...
I'm not claiming right or wrong...I just want to get better...
I never done my best afterall...seems to be just a trouble maker..
I'll take the blame..so would you haters get all of this over?..

..Sick and tired...
...I'm no longer excited...
If u want to play around..
Sorry I'm no longer companion..
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I live on both side of this socially construction..
I had to choose my step almost each second..
I'm defensive when I'm offended...
I can put so many face and I can stand barenaked...

I can unleash a wisefull frame...
and could be real damage when my primitive's untamed..

At the end...
I just trying to survive it...
But I ain't angel, this flesh called human..
I'll learn much more..instead of regret it...
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If life needs both side to fit...
So be it..
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