_justAnyOtherDay_

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....More I'm thinkin'...more I've fell down...
Like buried alive in my deepest mind..
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....What I've been through...
What I'm through now...
And what will be..
On and on...
Keep fullfillin' my head..
Flowin' non stop..
Drownin' me..
Pushing me much more deeper...
To my darkest fear..
To my darkest chamber of myself...
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.....Today...29012010..
Full moon again...
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...I've got a lot of trouble when the full moon arise...
..Each time...
Except when I've hide somewhere..
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Like a myth..
My irrasional though about full moon..
We've never really get along..
I've born at mid day..
12.07pm to be exact..
When the sun up above me..
..Put my shadow right under my feet..
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I've whine so much about my life should be..
And I've worked hard enough to stay where i stand my feet..
..Life's push me harder..
And I always thought I've overcome the hardest way life could possibly give me..
But I always wrong..
Each time..any other time...
Harder day pass me through..
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In the end of the day like this..
I just sit and think again..
It's not as hard as I thought..
..I just didn't gratefull enough..
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I've met new people today...
Even I start my day thinking so many people really annoying..
I've really known more people that really kind and flattering...
It's just amazed me sometime that I hadn't gratefull enough..
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My friends was really kind...even at first I met them..
Like today..
I'm gratefully flattered to know them..
Made me realize there's no such thing like hardest day..
It could possibly harder at a time..
But it won't be the hardest..
Not yet..

GOD had provided me so much...
My loving family...
Kindest friends..
And amazingly strong lover...

He drove through the rain...
Hold me tight...
Love me..
And I just can't give anything..

I feel powerless...
When everyone else in my life give me so much..
And I can't do nothing for them...
I never be gratefull enough if I always think that I've through the hardest day..
I never really through it..
Coz people around me always save me from the edge..
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The full moon laugh at me..
Shine so bright and cheers on me..
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...I'm under the sun but I looked down to my hideous shadow..
..All I can do just feelin' hollow...
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...None I can compare how life is...
When people through that and I've gone through this..
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Today..under the full moon..
Hide and covered by rain..
Tomorrow new day will coming soon..
Sometimes I wish swept away my pain..
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I would never know...
Is there another harder day come?..
I let myself flow..
In the end I'll find my way home..

I've walk along this street...
Many peole that I meet and greet..
They may tricky but I'll working on some treat..
I just won't give up..even I'm defeated...
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No give up..
I won't give it up..
I've decided to live this life..
I deserved to dissappointed or sad..
But I won't give up...
Even I fell down on my knee I won't give up...
Even I buried under I'd survived and rise alive..
I won't just walk away or throw it just like that..

I've worked on it..
I've fell on it..
I've struggled...I've stumbled..
I've regret yet I've been great..
I'm doing just fine..its all've been great..

Its just any other day to live in...
Soon may just end..
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....Am I still have another day to live in?...
..If it goes harder...I should just through it then...
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P.S :
I may regret a lot of things I've decided recklessly..
But I'm so proud that I've been loved for who I am..without never be someone else but me..
I'm reckless...awkwardly moody..
I'm so proud to all my true friends around me..
That welcome whoever I am...whatever I'll be..
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...I can write about them endlessly..
Flowing through my head..I don't know how even I started and finished it quickly..
..All I can say "THANK YOU" with all my heart and love, for ur faith in me..
GodBless us...anything happen next..wishin' we stronger enough to get through however it'll be..

XoXoXo...mucho besos...me enamore de ti..

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