_notSuperficial_

..
....most people had something in common..
But still every individual had their own value...
..
...We always ask why the one we've known rarely seen had any common with our others acquiantance..
..
...Coz perhaps they're the one in a thousand or perhaps one in a million...
..

We got one earth..but lot of world on it..
Everything got its own classification..perception...stratification..values...beliefs..
..And all of it done by concious or unconscious..
..

...Most people can't stand themself being different..
And some of them embrace their unique..
..Most people can't understand why some people are different..
..And some people just don't know why most people bother about it..
..

Once in a time I lived in confusion..
I don't know why..I don't know how...
But more I experience..more I think..
More I know..
More I realize...
...I'm not the only one who suffered..
I'm not the only one who feel the pain..
But I'm the one who can face my own world..my own problem..my own pain..
...
.....

..To be continued...
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_behaviorResearchOnBajaj_

..
...When I'm out and about all by myself..I'm quickly bored and enjoy it..
...As people passing by I learn that I could have so much fun about it..
..

Sometimes I found people under hard labor day such as bus driver, taxi driver..or even bajaj driver was irksome..
..Not all...but most..
...it could happen for 2 reason : stressor or its just how they are..
..
...

I always have faith that most people didn't intended to be bad...while some perhaps really intended..
..
...But what attract me most and give me a big enjoyment was this :..

Bajaj...
One of 3 cycled transportation in my country..
It sounds very annoying and higher level on vibration hazard..
No doubt it brought lot of stressor and side effect on sosiopsychological aspect of the bajaj driver..

One simple research..
I always made a hard bargain to this driver..
Bajaj is not like a taxi...we should have a bargain how much it costs to go to our destination..
Long story short....the driver took me but he grumbled and carelessly drove his bajaj..
It annoys me actually..but I really wanna know how this is gonna be..
I've said before to him that my destination is not far from we took off..
But when he found it was so far away..he really upset but trying not to show..
He protested with carelessly drove..
When we arrive..he still grumbling..and suddenly stop when I paid as much as he asked before bargaining..coz I thought its worthed..I admit its far..but tell nothing..I just smile and out from the bajaj..he stop grumbling and start a very genuine flattering..he even help me out of his bajaj..
Offer me if he could do anything else..
I almost LoL in front of him..
..

So that's it..
...How I love to be bored...I could found LoL trick all the time..hahaha..
Ciao.. XD

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_iAmLately_

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...I'm lately like I always used to be..
Weak and sick..
But for those who know me..I have a stubborn heart..
..

..I feel like my body and my mind never really tired to think even my head spinning round and I almost fainted by fever..
..

Neither alone in my room..or with my friends..or on the street...
I can't help myself thinking about everything..
Every little thing I've through..
I've been seen..I've been felt..
..

I was never assume I'm right...I always think that every right thing has possibility to be wrong..
It's just a matter of how I deal with it..
..

When I face something going on in front of me..
My mind and soul collide to choose which track I would step in..
Time's never wait..
after one blink...I'll saw myself smile and relieved..or I'll regret what I've done..
..

There's no replay..
Life's a spontaneus stage without rehearsal..
I rehearse from my mistakes and embarrasement...
From my pain..and from what I've seen..
..From my laugh..
All around me...
...

Each time I fall off this stage..and rise again..
I take a look for everyone...
They're fall like I am..
But some choose to rise or buried deep down their deepest fear..
..

Even when I thought I was all alone feeling happiness or pain..
There's billion people feel the same..
Not as similar maybe..
..But I never alone..
I feel down...but I thought someone out there had survived it..and I would do so..
..
It's not just me to feel..
I am no one but part of this life ride on giant wheel...
Wheel of emotions..
Wheel of faith and fate..
I'm not seeing what in front..
But all around on every side..
..That's why I won't give up..
I'll be rest for a while..
But don't ever think I'm giving up..
I just rest..
Close my eyes and feel my breathe getting slow..
My head keep spinning round..
My body getting weaker..
But my soul....live it up...forever...
..
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Dear Mr. President,
Come take a walk with me.
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me.
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly.

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street?
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep?
What do you feel when you look in the mirror?
Are you proud?

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why?

Dear Mr. President,
Were you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
How can you say
No child is left behind?
We're not dumb and we're not blind.
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pave the road to hell.


What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine.

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye?


Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
Oh


How do you sleep at night?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Dear Mr. President,
You'd never take a walk with me.
Would you?
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_JakartaHariIni_

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...Today goes smoothly...
I don't even bothered by anything and I don't give a damn..
.
..I feel like I have enough just being myself and help others as far as I can..
Just like that..
I'm not expecting anything or something..
I'm blank but I fully content..
.

.Some weird thing happen..
Something always happen everyday..
Even on the most boring condition..I feel I see and I learn about something..
.

When I get home today by bus..while I'm thinkin' bout how nervous I am while working on my exam today..someone give me a small sticker with arabic language on it..
I recognize it as symbol of islamic belief..
ALLAH is the mightiest...
I got it when I'm in doubt of how my exam will passed..
It makes me smile even I'm not a moslem..
God can give his encouragement in every way that God wanted..
.
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TimeLikeThis..

I want u to...... X)
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_embraceIt,dontFightIt_

Nothing come to ease when it hurts...

I cry a lot..
Gain pain so much..
I wish I just can swept away..
But its just won't leave me any day..

I just can embrace it..
Admit that I can't stand it..
But one thing I have to believe..
I'll find my way to relieve..
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LiveUrs..

Reason to live our life for another is just an excuse so we can blame if it doesn't work...
It's not bring anything..just drag to nothing..
So live our own life and another can be proud to be involved in..
.
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_OnTheRoad_

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.Its surprised me that boring things or obstacles could be very enjoyable..for me..
.I find a lot in silence..
Stronger and more independent..
I saw kind of things that people mostly missed..coz it been their daily life..
Struggling just to survive..

I'm boring but get excited at the same time..
The way people live their life colorin' my day..
Amused me in such a delicate ways..
Adorable..
Nauseating..
Valuable..
Absurd but clearly amazing..
.

I can't explain how it could be so interesting..
I guess that's why people keep alive..
So many reason to hurt and gain much pain..
But more reason to survive...
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Menang jd arang..kalah jd abu..
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motivation-circle

Not so complicated ha?..LoL
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_forEveryone!!!_

In my country we celebrate both at the same day..
Full of love..
Full of hope..
Full of blessing..
Full of luck...
CHEERS!!!... XD

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_What_

No matter how hard to stand..we're holding hands..no words to say..coz we've known our way..

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_we'reNotLovebirds_

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For this years I've walk on to my vision over his and trying to colaborate our mission to reach what we've been agreed..
..

We're not together just for hang out..laugh or nothing...
That's why we're so upset when we can't make a deal each time our world collide..
..

He's not my boyfriend..he doesn't care how fancy my dress..or how cute is my make up..
He looked at me..for who I really am..listen to what I said..
He often numb..can't answer me straight..
He can't tell me sweetest things on earth to calm me down..
He just shut his mouth till he found the way to tell me the truth..
..

He's not like any other guy...
No matter how much I tried to learn about a man..
I feel like I was just seen the surface of him..
And its not even close what he is..
Coz he's different..
He's not my boyfriend..

We play this game not with my own way...
Either his way..
But our way..
We collide but we manage to find each other side..
We dig deep...and none understand how we're inside and what we believe..
..

We set our vision..
Struggling on our mission..
Down to our knees..
What people see was us at very least..
..

...We're not a lovebird..
He's not my boy..and I'm not his girl..
We're a team..
We're on a journey and trying to write our story..
..It's more chalenging..and much fun..than just a lovebird's smoochfest..

We're not hanging on the surface....

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_setMySight_

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..Its been a while now..
I struggle and stumble...
They never really know what's going on between us..
..

We're on our track..
We live our life..
..

We dig deep..and deeper than what people see on the surface..
..We set our sight straight to our dreams..
..

People. Can walk upon it..
Can talk about it..
Complain and advice and just let them laugh out loud from it..
..

Coz they've got their own way..
We've got our own..
They won't understand in any way..
For our story and the up and down..
..

For this ride..
All our feeling inside..
I've been set my sight..
We push our way open wide..

It's a struggle it's a fight...
There's nothing could always right..
For our mistakes we learn to survive..
Coz that's just the way we live this life..
..

....Let us be..
U can say whatever u think about me..
U can laugh or underestimate my story..
But it's me..and I'm not u..
I won't be u..and not trying to..
Thanks for ur advice..
But I've got my own dice..
Roll or throw it's my choice..
I've got my own thought how it's about to release..

Yes..I'm thinking far ahead..
Yes..I live my life with some regrets..
But I respect those feelings..
I'm regret it..but I'm not ashamed about it..
It's part of my life..
I'm moving forward..
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.They are cute..
They had 9 lives to survive..
They look powerless and confused..but they managed their way for their inner graciousness..
.

.Sometimes we did stupid things..
Sometimes we feel so ignorance and don't even know what we've been thinking..
.All seems like complicated thread..
Like we could hardly breathe and think we could be dead..

I'm looking back to this..
Innocently stare..and somehow give me peace..
Once again to appreciate all around me..
Respect myself for being a fighter and not just give up for what I really wanted to be..
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..
...I breathe..I eat..
..I live..I've got all I need..
Sometimes I'm so restless...
Asking for more and don't want to accept less..

Even each luck seems like a gift..
My life is like most people lives..
We've earned it and survive it..
While some just snap and have it..

I saw kids at night still wandering on the street..
My stomach twisting and my head spinning..
I keep wondering "are they already eat?"..
One moment of truth that reminds me for what I've been given..

Empathy or sympathy?..
Sympathy only feel pity..
While empathy put all urself into the story..
Can you really feel how those people exactly?..

in my age I've seen much more than one side of story..
I've step down and climb up..
For what I've been through some people don't know how it been exactly..
I don't really know what they intend to do think so and why should I listen up..

Meskipun semua hal bisa kita lakukan jika kita yakin itu mudah...
Bagiku..tidak ada hal yang bisa dilakukan semudah membalik telapak tangan..
Bagiku..tidak ada hal yang bisa diremehkan..
Mungkin aku terlalu memikirkan hidupku..dan sekitarku..
Tapi itulah caraku untuk bertahan..
Aku tidak bisa mengikuti cara orang lain..
Meskipun kucoba meneladani hal baik..dan mencoba menjauhi hal buruk..
Aku tidak akan terlepas dari siapa diriku sebenarnya dan apa kata hatiku..
Yang paling terpenting adalah apa yang kupikirkan dan aku rasakan terhadap hidupku..
Bukan berarti aku egois..
Bukan berarti pula aku harus mendengarkan setiap perkataan orang mengenai hidupku dan keputusanku..

Aku menghargai kepedulian orang terhadap apa yang aku alami..
But they never walk in my shoes..
..

It's just exactly how they won't live my way of life..either me to have their way for I live..
..

I'm poor..but lots more can't even got anything..
I have money..but I'm not trump or oprah to not even bother how much it spent..
I'm weak...but lots more weaker and even can't do anything..
I'm strong...even lots more stronger inside and outside or however it may seems..
I'm all of both side..
I'm living on it..
I have my way to survive..

I always put myself never be higher or feel uncomfortably lower than anybody else..
Coz I'm lucky and blessed for not being more less..
I can't reach what people higher than me ever reach..
And I was born perfectly without any dissability..
I respect others who survive their life..
I respect their way to live in such condition or situation or even if they had to done such things that some people can't barely understand..

No one ever know how it felt..
So I won't say anything..
I won't tell them how to do w/ their decision..
How to live their life..
But I just can assure them what it's life..
Life is about creating our journey..
Our own unwritten story..
We're the writer...others just references..
But we're the one to determine our path..
Our steps..
Our ride..
Ours..
..

.....Live my life..coz it's mine..

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I'll be with u on that road..just wait for me..and move slowly..coz I've smaller feet..u've got a step I should run to catch..

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U&me

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How people so easy to say about me when u don't know at all about me?..

u never walk in our shoes...
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