"300610"

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I never like to mentions day,year..month..any date..no..
But that day made the time has stopped in my head..

From all I've been through..I forgive..I forget..I am..what I am..and who I am..there I am..

I realize...there's a part of me buried deep inside that shakin...
I still have that fear..
No matter how positive I am..no matter how strong I am..no matter what...
It's there..was there..and always be there...my fear...

and I'm scared..
...

.....Its a part of me..somehow I feel I need it with me..
While most people try to get rid of it...that day I realize I never want it dissappear from my life..
I just buried it deep down..for a long time..
It knocks sometimes..
scratching my scars..and let me bleed..
..It was there..

I'm scared but I'm not afraid...
its a complicated feeling I have...

....300610...
I can live with this fear..
I never gonna be an angel though..
Nor a devil..
It makes me more alive..
Reminds me that I am a human..
I can create both heaven and hell on earth..
That fear won't drives me...its just stay right there like a shadow..
Another side of me..
My negativity along my positive thoughts..
My pessimistic concern along my optimistic view...
It completes me...somehow...

...300610....

Once again..my fear brought me to discoveries..

I will always remember that day...
When my faith..my hope..my love...and my life almost lost...
when I realize how much it hurts and take damages..
When I know I never want to step back...
When I carve my path and seal the deal..
When I know.....no matter how great is my fear....It actually never wins against the whole of me...
I am scared....
But I'm not afraid....as I ever remember.....never....

Its (never) just me...
JR's

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