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...In 23 years of my life I thought I was so rebelious..
Even I've changed many times..
Adapted new behaviour and slowly recognize myself..

I'm not a smoker..not even like to drunk..
just occasionally sippin' one glass of champagne or wine..
And adding lil' vodka in a fruit punch..
Well I guess...I'm normally doing things..
LoL..

Since I was 4,I have weak immunity to any particular food..and since I was 9 I have problems with my digestions..
My mom always warned me about what should I do about how I should eat..how I should take care of my body and especially my digestions..

When I grew up..I thought I'm getting stronger and strong enough to break the rule..
To taste what I never really allowed to..
Being a rebel sounds so cool for me at the time..
Long story short...now I know it's not really cool at all..
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After all this years..this days..
I'm starting to realize why no matter how I thought I knew...grewin' up would tellin' me more..
Sometimes..i couldn't just found the answer..while a teen blood always rushing to know..or too passionate to wait then choose to ignore..

I'm not saying I'm old enough to be wise now..
And I'm not considerin' to make any other people thinkin' the same way or live as I do..
I just wanna share that..if only I could keep my skeptical to any other bad result for being ignorance to my own health..I'll be so much relieve now..
But unfortunately I'm included in anyone who can't just doing things without any consequences..
I don't care how's the rate now...but this is what I've been through..
There's no time to regret..
What needed now is how I survive it..
How I can make it better...
Just stop thinkin' "what if"...
But just doing things better and significantly at present..and embrace this moment..
The future will determined later after today..and any other day I'll maybe have..
JR's

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